9 May 2006

Dear Baby: Jack, our puppy, and I are cuddled on our new couch under one of you soon-to-be baby blankets. Your Grandmother, Nana, got it at a used clothing store. Imagine the history we are continuing. I threw up today- only the second time. So I guess you are being pretty easy on me. Its been two weeks since the first ultrasound. It was almost unreal to see you there- so foreign looking from what I expect humans to look like. But you didn't feel foreign. I felt so comfortable, laying there on the doctor's table, just gazing at you, hearing your heart, watching you wiggle. Where did this energy that is you come from? From what spark, electricity, whirlwind did you come to find my belly? When the ultrasound was over, I wanted to stay with you. But then I remembered you are still with me and I am still with you. I want so badly to hold you but it is also true, I hold every part of you in every part of me every day. And I shall for the rest of my life. Brian is distracting me and bed time it is. I love you my little one. -Mom